THE REUSABLE MAN

THE REUSABLE MAN
Alright, I know this is going to be a touchy subject, but I’m diving in with both feet! I have always taken to the woman’s side in life and here on thoughts, but I got personal issues I need to get out in the open, this one’s for the guys! I never had luck with the ladies, and deep down that pisses me off! Guys, how many times have you fallen in love and been there for a broken hearted female and she wants to remain friends! I myself am referring to my high school days/early adulthood and not anyone here on thoughts! I mean, I got that a lot! Oh, I have a boyfriend, when I knew she clearly didn’t! Or they pull the friends card on you! I kind of felt like an emotional tampon back in the day! I know not all women are like that! But not all men are sex crazed pigs either! And what really puts a fire under my ass is all the macho guys got the ladies! Then the women would bitch when they got treated like shit! I grew so tired of “oh, he’s such a sweetheart!” Or, “what a great guy!” Yeah, but you couldn’t date a guy like me or others that actually cared like me! Why? I wasn’t bad looking! Well never mind me; I’ll just eat my pork and beans while the macho crowd has their steak and eggs! You should hear the way I hear those macho guys talk about the ladies! No respect! They care nothing for the female’s feelings. At least the way they talk that’s what I gather any how! But the sad part is, I am finding the shit they say to be true when it comes to a lot of women out there, I feel like a virgin in the battle of the sexes here! Day in and day out I see what these macho guys are talking about! Stuff I didn’t want to believe! I always thought of a woman as a princess and as my equal! But it won’t get you a date fellas! If you do get a good woman that loves you for you, let me know! Just tell me to take a seat first so I don’t hit the floor full force from passing out! I said before that I put on a macho act, and it worked! But I could not play games and misrepresent myself! I am a straight to the point guy that has neither time for games nor the patience. If someone can’t love me for me, then there as useless as the rocks in my driveway! Don’t get me wrong here! I love having friends that are girls! I can see a woman’s point of view which makes me get along with a female a whole lot better than males! But I am still a guy. A guy that has feelings! And for the most part I feel shit on by most of the females in my high school days and my early adult hood. I feel that the way I was regarded by women was and still is the corner stone of my psychological damage that had a hand in the manifestation of Caution. I don’t think there is any repair. But I am who I am now, there’s no taking it back! I think I’m like many other hopeless romantics out there; I’m just a reusableman. It’s ironic I would choose female friends over male friends, don’t you think?